I shall swallow my pride and let you sing a vintage lullaby tonight.
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Friday, December 26, 2008
Another blog with no picture attach to it .......
Bear with me , till brother and me have enough cash to bring our computer back to life .. Another moody night , what izzist this time ? I prove myself again to be impossible .. " Why force things when you know you cant balance it " this sentence is so heavy to me ...
Maybe it sounds simply normal to other people , but have i not done enough to make it as real as possible as i could ? Or maybe doing my best aint e best .. Probly it's wad other can do also .. I seriously find tat e problem is within me , izzist too much focus on job ? or simply i'm not ready for any relationship ? to me i'm juz into anytink i'm doing .. Full focus on job while working , full concentration on generating money , fully devoted to my love 1 ..
why force things when you know you cant balance it , WHY ? why am i going for all tis trouble trying to figure out how to balance my farking life .. why ? e ans is only for " H.E.R " WHO ELSE ~~!!! give me other ans instead if u guys have ..
If i dunno i'll learn , i'll find e ans if no one teach me , if you wan me to backoff then i wun even wanna start it , but if i wanna start it i wun even wanna give up .. And i'll be a normal sore loser in life n relationship if i give it up .. Haiz , shitty day with a shitty ending again .. I dun mean anythink but i think my blog serve e right for me to vend my anger .. It's not right to vend anger on my gal nor to my fren .. e only way to relieve myself is telling my blog wads i felt at e very moment i'm typing ..
Feels so gd after typing out .. I aint someone who's very soft hearted but i'm someone who's soft hearted to my love ones .. "As long as you r happy i'm okie with nearly everything , wad most important to me is ur smile n ur wholehearted love to me " I might not be ur cup of tea nor coffee ... I can only give you wad i'm able to .. If it's not enuff i'm sorry .. because tat's wad i can give to you , if can i rather i moved in to see you every night , after a long working day at least i can see someone i hope to see everyday .. even if juz to watch you sleep , it's kinda blessing to me .. to touch you on ur face is a bonus , to sleep beside you holding ur hand is wad i crave when i know you more n more .. Love is a poison tat you wun notice , a poison tat attacks ur brain .. A drug more powerful then nicotine , making one do silly things at times ..
Please ignore my above text .. Vending my moody emo today .. life is just like a library , filled wif difference side of stories .. a stories tat can nv balance , if realli everything can find their balance in their world then the word "mistakes" will nv appear in dicionary ..
Tat's all folks , feeling better .. Hoping my gal is sleeping sweet n sound .. i miss her so so much tat words is nv enough for me express myself .. it's getting real late .. 3.34 at my comp .. i needa wake up at 8am tml .. Hope i dun late ..
I simply miss my gal ..............................................................................................
swallow your pride and sing tonight.
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01.04.1986 178-180cm ( IDK e ans ) 70kg ( Updated 2009 ) Tat's all you need to know bitch
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What I Want ?: I wish this is dream will never end .. I hope She'll be always mine .. I don't wanna fail her again , tat's all I want :)
